As you may be able to tell, the website looks a bit different, and all those beautiful poetic musings have been lost to the ether.
It’s been such a long time since I’ve updated the website and the Facebook page, that I almost feel liberated by the clean new format, the lack of backlogs to remind me of my sporadic posting, and the brighter colors to reflect a hopeful new start.
As many of my closest family members and friends know, the Depression and Anxiety that I suffer on a pretty frequent basis completely knocks my writing rituals out of whack. It’s been months since I’ve written with any degree of frequency, and I believe a great deal of that is due to my current hatred of my complete novel, still firmly stuck in the editing phase. After three complete rewrites, this fourth draft is feeling lost, the vision shattered, and the characters confused. After giving up on the fourth draft, I’ve felt a weight off of me to try and revive something that I lost track of.
I’ve learned some lessons from the failings of my novel, and one of them is: STICK TO YOUR VISION, DANGIT!
On the brighter side of things, I have other ideas in store that I intend to explore with measured excitement, and I’m gaining back some confidence in myself as I’m teaching about four hours a week of a creative writing class to elementary kids.
So, my website has been wiped clean, but in a way, it’s a poetic representation of a clean start for me as well. I’m going to embrace any bits of confidence and inspiration I feel and take to the keyboard, to the notebook, and to the drawing pad, hoping to revive my identity as a writer and an artist.
I have hope for the future of this website, the longevity of my inspiration and dedication to writing, and for a clean slate with which to splatter the clumpy paint of my soul.
With much love and gratitude,
Taylor Brooke McCoy (Leasure)